I Am An Addict
Hi. My name is Kris and I have an addiction.
I used to think people were crazy to love it. How can anyone with a sane mind possibly love doing it?
It was hard to even begin at first. Every sense in my body told me it was the wrong thing to do. Friends told me how damaging it was for those who tried. Most people felt disgusted by it and wouldn’t even attempt it. Only a handful found it to be the missing piece in their lives and these rare ones are usually labelled ‘crazy’ by the rest.
Then something changed last year after I started trying it out. It felt exhilarating. It left me high and dry and wanting more even when my body tells me not to. Fatigue will sometimes last long after doing it but I can’t help but do it again. Every time I recover, I felt that I wanted more and more. I am almost obsessed with doing it at a higher frequency than most normal people would ever do it for.
I started to reduce my daily activities, socializing and sometimes even forgoing food, just so that I could spend more time on it. People frown when I talk about it. I can almost see the disgust in their faces when I explain my love for it. It makes me feel guilty sometimes when I attempt to persuade others to try it out, especially when their frowns deepen.
Many say humans are not meant to do it so much. It is harmful.
I say that they are wrong. It is the very thing that makes us human.
Hi. My name is Kris and I have an addiction to running.
